I woke up this morning and there it was again. Over the 60 years since my sexual abuse started it has happened many times, although less frequently as my emotional and spiritual healing has taken place. I am talking about the sensation of being sodomized. It is one of the reminders of uglier times. For decades the sensation triggered fear, anxiety, rage and an appetite for vengeance. Today I feel none of those, only a renewed commitment to my participation in programs to protect children and help adults heal form the evil of child sexual abuse.
It is my prayer that, if Jerry Sandusky is guilty he will stand this one time as a man and admit the horrifying damage he has caused. He will not deny and rape the integrity of these boys again in the public eye by calling them liars and making them face him down in a court of law. He will not accept freedom on some vague technicality. If he is guilty, he destroyed the innocence of their youth and strewed them along his path of perversion. If he is a survivor of child sexual abuse himself, he fully understands the trauma and damage he has caused. If he is guilty, his life has been a complete and total lie, his marriage has been a lie and the real focus of his life has been to destroy the very essence of who other young men are. Lest there be any doubt, he will receive justice for his actions as described in Jeremiah 17:9-10.
The truth can be their first step in true healing for these many boys, and even for Jerry Sandusky.
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